FLORAL CARPET!!

Early morning when pushed myself to go for walk and felt dizziness due to lack of sleep but dressed up in my tracks,started walking.

A cool breeze gave good morning smile,with a beautiful companion" Nature ".I started walking in lush green area.The gardens are a burst of vivid blooms and a visual treat. The picturesque landscape full of manicured lawns and hedges, British style bungalows of seniors and terraces is breathtaking. 

The gardens are known for many varieties of flowers found here along with marigolds, petunias, lilies and bougainvilleas that dot the paths. By and large, it remained a rejuvenating experience where i got a chance to appreciate and admire nature’s wonders.

Afterwards path were going ahead acrossing 'Boghra Chowk' towards bridge.On bridge the bus stop is my favorite destination. Path leading ahead took me to a beautiful floral carpet spreaded by nature only.Trees were swinging in different-different directions and doing rain of flowers on the earth.The whole morning walk was like heaven is here only.Thanks to mother nature and keeper who look after  it.

MY JOURNEY AS AN ARMY WIFE

Being an Army wife comes with its own set of challenges and adventures,often leading to incidents that are rich with life lessons.Here's one:

         As a newlywed I embarked on a journey as an army- wife with excitement and anticipation,eager to support my spouse.Little I know,the road ahead would be filled with uncertainties and moments that would put my resilience to the test.

               The tenure started from small cantonment in Rajasthan. A short memorable posting, initiating me into unit life.I learnt the skill of doing up the most barren place artistically and slowly, I painted in the color of olive green. Meanwhile, due to some engagement we were left alone in remote station.Families preferred to stay back in the same cantonment to not disrupt their wards education.One night,My senior lady called me up and discussed an issue.Promptly we decided to take our own vehicle due to time boundation.We reached in family quaters those were far way due to new constructed buildings and took a seven year old injured boy in our car.He was bleeding heavily in head.I pressed firmly with a cloth on his wound.He treated at MH.Then we consoled his mother.Later on ,we educated and motivated families-

First to ask help,second don't be panic in any situation and most importantly try to learn regional languages to avoid language barrier.

  In this way,I learnt that Army is a community which having a sense of affection,belonging and togetherness despite coming from different backgrounds.We become family to each other.

RAAT

 Yeh sochne wali raat,

Yeh aankon me nikal jaane wali raat,

Yeh khud ki samjhaish wali raat,

Vo thak ker chur hone per bhi,

Aankon me neend na aane wali raat,

Vo jo nahi mila,

Or na mil sakne wala majak,

Us upper wale se,

Hone wali ladai ki raat,

Khud ko jakdne wali raat,

Sab bikhara or tuta hua,

Sametane wali raat,

Jo sahi h bas vahi kerne ko,

Apnane wali raat,

Sab maan Jane per bhi,

Kuch tuta or chubta hua si raat,

Khub takatwar ban Jane per bhi,

Sab chut Jane wali raat,

Khokhala karne wali raat,

Khud ki samjhaish,

Usoolon ki aajmaish wali raat,

Koi na,

Beet jayegi raat,

Per ab kyu

In this era we are too control freak and everything is handy.eg-gasgets,automobiles,etc. But still our own thoughts and emotions are out of control. Isn't there any way to get rid of these feelings?In which way do we also start behaving like machines. 

That only person..

 That only person,

Whom do you rely on,

In your happiness,

In deep sadness, 

In every silence,

In unexplained pain,

In every laughter,

In mid of juggler,

In every struggle, 

In happines of wiggle, 

In any solve of puzzle,

When and where you stuck in,

By whom you are tuck in,

In every presence,

In those absence, 

When sadly you see empty seat,

When you make them proud,

When made them anger loud,

When memories can't be vanished, 

Where judgment is finished, 

They always understand, 

At last ,

Whenever you asked,

Am I right?

They say "yes"

Am with you always. 🤗

They sigh,

And exhaled,

"Yeah,my.....

Lucky whosever have this kinda person in their life.Even it's a single person where you don't need to put any curtains and having full transparency, dependency and relying.Embrace it gracefully. 

BALANCE!

 An ancient Chinese symbol 'Ying-Yang' visualize duality light and dark,positive and negative.It's more than two side of coin,represents balance in life.

 Continuously We all seek off  balance,peace and harmony in life. Balancing among the matter of life gives us satisfaction and gratitude. Direct our direction towards path ahead with clarity.

But we can't get everything in life.Something,  somewhere always left.We can't choose everything. We can't choose day or night, dawn-dusk ,sun-moon together. As well as we can't get good family life and career,our health and family's health,our time and others well-being,our desires and importance of everyone's fuure something need to be sacrificed.

The day you start working on your field gradually you will start moving ahead towards success,knowledge is the key which cannot be taken away from you through you can establish yourself anywhere anytime. 

As physics law 'Entropy' suggests every living and non-living matter looks for balance and shift molecules accordingly.At some level our brain & emotions start working with shifting contentment  towards discontenment.We start looking for those things we left behind to make balance of given situations and it's human tendency. 

So look insightfully in your actions and always pat your backs cause nobody knows better than you what have you faced and get everything done to achieve this balance,overcome discontenment and move ahead on path of more achievements rather discussing what didn't you get in life?

You may be easily entitled as a negative person if you discuss hardship of your life,May be judged easily ,People look at you in pity. As Chankya said"Even your own shadow in mirror shouldn't know the weaknesses of life it may be discourage you".

Keep balance,hold assets tight and move ahead on progressive path.Don't underestimate anything .Everything is having it's own importance at different time and places in life and stop feeling bad cause everyone isn't granted everything in life.

Sometimes champion isn't who just wins ,champion is who shows courage,passion and determination when face adversity .

"Wear your failure as a badge of honor "

                                           -Sunder Pichai

Believe in yourself !!

A GLANCE OF PAST!!

 **The Unexpected Tea Ceremony**

Life in Dimapur has its unique charm, especially as the wife of a dedicated Assam Rifles officer. One particular experience stands out, blending amusement with valuable life lessons.

One early morning, I decided to take a walk through the nearby village, hoping to immerse myself in the local culture. As I strolled past traditional bamboo houses, I noticed a small group of villagers gathered around a table. Curious, I approached them and was warmly invited to join their tea ceremony.

Excited but slightly nervous, I took a seat. The host, an elderly gentleman with a warm smile, began the ceremony by pouring tea from a beautifully decorated pot. As he handed me a cup, he began speaking in rapid-fire Nagamese, the local dialect. Not understanding a word, I smiled and nodded politely.

He then gestured for me to drink the tea. I took a sip and immediately felt my mouth on fire. The tea was infused with an incredibly spicy local herb! Trying to keep my composure, I gulped it down, my eyes watering. The villagers watched, their expressions a mix of curiosity and amusement.

Just as I thought the worst was over, the host refilled my cup, and everyone around the table followed suit. Determined to be polite, I drank cup after cup, each one hotter than the last. By the fourth cup, my tolerance had run out. I gently set my cup down and tried to convey my appreciation with a series of hand gestures and smiles.

The villagers burst into laughter, and the elderly host patted my back. In broken English, he said, "Madam, you brave. But next time, say no if too hot!"

Later that day, as I reflected on the morning's adventure, I gleaned two crucial life lessons:

1. **Embrace the Unexpected**: Living in a new place often brings unexpected challenges and experiences. Embracing these moments with an open mind and a willingness to adapt makes the journey more rewarding and memorable.

2. **Know Your Limits**: It’s important to be polite and respectful, but also to recognize and honor your own limits. There’s no shame in admitting when something is too much to handle. True hospitality is understanding and accommodating, not just enduring.

The spicy tea ceremony became a favorite tale to share with friends and family, a reminder of the joy and richness found in stepping out of one’s comfort zone and the importance of knowing when to say "no, thank you."

HAPPY

 Happiness, 

Wanna to make everyone happy, 

Wanna to see smile on each and every face,

Never wanna to dishearten anyone, 

Wanna to protect every heart from heartbreak, 

When I know,

What other person is thinking, 

When I know,

What other person is doing, 

Neglecting myself, 

Neglecting needs,

Neglecting values, 

Neglecting me,

Taking charge of every smile,

And trying to find happiness in those faces,

Is it alright, 

Am I right,

Or gonna wrong?

Who knows?

And if somebody knows ,

Than let me know please....

EMUSING ANECDOTES

 *A Humbling Experience in Dimapur*

Life in Dimapur in Assam Rifles has always been full of surprises. One sunny afternoon, I decided to explore the local market. With its vibrant colors and bustling atmosphere, the market was a delightful maze of stalls selling everything from fresh produce to handcrafted souvenirs.

As I wandered through the narrow lanes, I stumbled upon a small stall selling traditional Naga jewelry. Intrigued, I picked up a beautiful necklace adorned with intricate designs and asked the elderly vendor for the price. She quoted a price that seemed exorbitantly high. Remembering my freind’s advice on bargaining, I put on my best negotiation face and began to haggle.

After several rounds of back-and-forth, we finally settled on a price that I thought was a steal. Feeling quite pleased with myself, I walked away, only to hear the vendor and her neighboring stall owners burst into laughter. Curious, I turned back, and the elderly woman cheerfully called out, "Madam, you bargained so hard, but you still paid the tourist price!"

Embarrassed but amused, I couldn’t help but laugh along with them. As I returned home, I realized two important life lessons:

1. *Respect Local Wisdom*: The incident reminded me that locals always know best. They are aware of the going rates and often know when someone is new to the area. Instead of trying to outsmart them, it's sometimes better to seek their guidance and trust their knowledge.

2. *Embrace Humility*: Living in a new place comes with its share of learning curves. Embracing these moments with humility and a sense of humor makes the experience richer and more enjoyable. It's okay to make mistakes; they often lead to the best stories and lessons.

That day, not only did I walk away with a beautiful necklace, but also with a newfound appreciation for the wisdom and warmth of the local community.

LIVING IN THE MIST!

Who is freind ,

And who is a foe?

Or is everyone around me a foe?

I can't tell,

Is the approaching me through the mist,

A devil or Angel?

Have he/she come to save me,

Or destroy me?

The Truth is so fragile ,

That even the faintest mist can hide it.

Just Improve.

 Improve yourself,

Just Improve yourself, 

Wherever you are,

In Whichever condition you are,

Who stop you from learning new things,

Who stop you reading new books,

Who stop creating new things,

Find time,

A single moment ,

Who stop you from taking care of your thought,

Who stop you from taking care of your body,

Do yoga,

Move your body,

Whichever suits you,

Whichever suits your conditions,

Everyday is a new begging, 

Start a new lesson, 

And start today,

Cause as you are limited addition,

This time too.

So dear me ,

Start investing in yourself!!

Moments!

 Moments, 

Beautiful moments,

When you wish time could stand still 

Ever & forever, 

But everything changes so fast,

Without realizing,

Life is made up of these fleeting moments,

So live fully, 

Live in memories everyday,

In those laughters,

In those feelings,

When you are truely infront of someone, 

Without any layer,

I cherish dead roses in pages of my book,

Cause fresh roses lives for days but a dead one -"Forever " mine.

All the best!!

 All the very best, 

For your all future endeavors,

Have a look once behind,

And feel immense proud in yourself, 

Take steps towards future,

It's too brightful and cherishing,

Give your best,

As you do in each & everything,

Definitely,

Heart will be on heavier side,

But nothing can't gain in this world without pain,

Feel a holding hand always, 

God is with you!

Manzar hai yeh Naya.. URI song

DAYS!!

 Dear bad days,

      Thanks for coming,

      Thanks for crossing the path,

      Thanks for all the little sufferings,

      Thanks to the everyone whosever judging, 

       You showed me,

        How capable I am,

        How  brave I am,

        How strong morally I am,

        How mature I am,

        Faced everything fiercely, 

        Faced everything  calmly,

        Faced everything Silently,

        Faced everything peacefully,

       Cause silence has it's own language,

       Cause becoming compassionate after    knowing everything ,

       It needs courage and  big heart,

       Thanks for showing me real colors,

       Thanks for showing me human aren't from bookish world,

       Looking forward to meet you each and everyday,

      Keep showing me ,

      My powers!!

      Always focused on the getting the best     version of myself. 

         

 

HOPE!!

 A first ray of sun,

A first thought of day,

A first cup of tea,

In every mirror and thing,

You are there,

When time is tough,

Not a single stone turned against you,

You are there,

Innocent smile,

Naughty or fragile,

In each and every dish,

Not mere in sunset,

Every star & moon,

Late night pray,

Each and every sway, 

You are there,

You are there,

hope!

FALL!!

 A stand still,

Tall tree,

Full of flowers,

Weather changed,

Dried up before time,

Once a soothing breeze came,

Whole tree painted in color of life,

Lived again, 

dried tree starts smile again,

But that's not last long,

Soon all leaf fall,

Tree saw everything with plain face,

And heart wrenching pain,

One leaf stays, 

Whatever going on,

Tree requested to leave it,

But stubborn leaf stayed,

Faced everything with tree along,

Harsh weather was like pleasant eve,

But tree again Stand still in dilemma of..

Values & principles, 

That only leaf stayed there,

How long..?

At last it has to move,

It's beautiful future was looking forward to it,

The pain tree feels can't explain in words,

Tree will never leave this leaf,

Whatever happens, 

And kept dried leaf of memories,

In book,Ever & forever.

Respect

To me,

Respect yourself, 

Respect your identity, 

Respect your beliefs,

Respect your values,

Respect your mistakes, 

Respect your lessons,

Respect yourself whenever back from the deviated path,

Respect your each & every effort, 

Respect your emotions,

Respect your appreciation, 

Pat your back on your own,

Cause you are the only one, 

So Respect your integrity & dignity,

Respect your pride

Who can respect you better than you,

Be with you,

And keep moving tiny or as much,

That's my life!!

A writer !!

A writer, 

I am,

Who's holding alot,

Write whatever I expose,

Meet people observe and write,

Saw incidents analyze and write,

Look around and pen down,

Found others story and head down,

Fold my hand infront of the God,

Hold hand of happiness and hope,

Having immense strength and pride in me,

There is no room for gloom,

Written all doesn't mean,

All in my head or heart,

Yes ,I am writer,

Going through the path,

To not get destination, 

It's just touching & passing by 

each & every direction,

Yes,I am a writer, 

Getting each and everything easily,

Observing alot,

Empathize all, 

Don't worry about me ,

Not at all,

I don't take things on my heart

Even learning a lots,

I am happy person ,

In the realm of happiness,

Hardships are part of life,

And coming out with smile,

In this tremor is art of life,

Yes,I am a writer!!

"MUMMA"

 Mumma,

An enchanting voice,

Melted the heart,

The irreplaceable joy & pride, 

Holding in your hand,

Sometimes I'm broken and too tired, 

Your brighter face enlightened my day,

Can't give up,

Can't sigh,

For a moment ,

For a second,

But My arms are always opened ,

Whenever you need hug,

My eyes are stern,

When you need a lesson, 

My heart understands ,

When you need a freind,

My immense strength, 

And unconditional love,

 Gives you wings to fly,

Go kiss the world, 

And fly high,

Sky is the limit for you!!

WORLD

 A bookish world, 

I have been through,

From the lens of book,

A fairy-tale,

Full of love,friendship and trust, 

So decided roam alone into this beautiful place, 

Beautifully,journey starts,

So affectationate all of them,

Like a princess, 

They loved me the most,

But scene changed,

Found all was fake,

Till the time you fulfill their wishes,

They were good,

Reality said 'hi' and smirked, 

What were I thinking about them?,

The love,the kindness and sacrifices,

Couldn't taken by them in a same way?

They were making fun of me,

And journey of "Alice in the wonderland",

Ended in a positive note,

Blessed to see true faces,

Lesson is learnt,

In realm of happiness .

Lesson-

Focus on you!People come and go.You are being judged no matter what ,so be who you want to be.What other people think of you is none of your business. Be yourself, people don't have to like you. Learning say no without explanation.Be proud you survive these days. Stay strong even when things begin to fall apart.Free yourself from others perception cause everyone have different perception about you according to situations.Free yourself from advices of society cause most of them have no idea.

CHARACTER

 Character

Who are those people,

Those decieds the character,

What is moral or ,

What is immoral, 

Who does decides it,

What's the definition of it?

Can we control our emotions?

At what level,

At what value,

Who does decide these boundaries?

Whosever are they,

Could they be able  to maintain these boundaries?

If anyone ever crossed it,

What does make your character?

Ha ha..this hilarious character, 

Which does stop every rebel,

Which stop from living the life ?

Character, 

Alas!!Character....

Bounded in the boundaries,

Suffocating character!!

Ha ha..hilarious..

This character ,

But whatever happens loose everything, 

Don't loose this good character. 

 

-Character is formed, not by laws, commands, and decrees, but by quiet influence, unconscious suggestion and personal guidance.

WABI-SABI

 Let go everyone, 

Let them show their colors,

Let them treat you as down as they can,

It hurts cause you still have heart,

Let par across it all,

Once these broken pieces become the shards,

Let over everything, 

Let your heart crushed as much it can,

Let all trust be broken, 

Let widened your eyes,

Cause once you get out from this cocoon, 

Will definitely transformed into caterpillar to butterfly!!

The more intense feelings and trust you have the more it gives the pain .

Wabi-Sabi..

When i was sitting alone,

Took a look at myself, 

Realized,

I am a unique person created ,

My abilities gifted by God matters, 

My story matters,

My dreams matters,

A specific purpose decided by me matters,

I matter for myself, 

I am imperfect, 

I am impermanent, 

I am incomplete, 

And "Wabi-Sabi".

Go Outside!!

 Go outside,

Open up,

Talk to all,

Meet with everyone, 

See the world,

With open eyes & ears,

People aren't as simple as seem ,

Observe them,

Remember them,

Experiences teach alot,

Not only yours even learn from mistake of others,

Blind faith,

Or Insincereity, 

They'll show you reality of world,

Expect nothing, 

It gives pain,

Enjoy the show as a spectacular!!

Beautiful life!!

 Life is beautiful, 

Ignore the trash,

Life is harmonious, 

Ignore the conflicts, 

Open your arms,

And wave to the happiness, 

Be sincere with only those ,

who are sincere to you,

Dance with body,

Sing with soul,

Life is glorious, 

Purpose of endure it's,

Soar & stumble part ,

Flourish it,

Fall in love with existence, 

Live the fullest not mere exist,

As long as we're breathing, 

It's not too late to change ,

Story of your life!!

Dear,Hook-upz....

Respect yourself, 

Respect others,

Respect your body & soul,

You are precious gift of God,

If you can't respect others,

Atleast respect your emotions, 

Respect your time,

Don't invest here & there,

You are invaluable, 

Be with you,

And embrace love for yourself,

Preserve these for your beloved,

Respect both of you,

Cause these emotions are divine!!

INDEPENDENCY

 

Independecy, 

When no one around to be dependent on,

Independecy, 

When you only have expectations from you,

Independecy, 

When you are the only responsible person in your world,

Independecy, 

When,Whenever you start taking rest on any  shoulder, 

Realized you are there for you,

Independecy, 

Whenever you are afraid, 

you are the only one who have to come up from the fear,

Independecy, 

Whenever you are tired,

You are there to cheer you up,

Independecy, 

You are the only one to give you hand and come up,

Independecy, 

Whenever you are broken,You know that you will put pieces again any how,

Independecy, 

You are there with yourself in each and every battle, 

Just be with you!!

TRUST

 Different colors are depicted by this place,

Everyone have double face,

Read alot about it ,

But saw first time,

Whosever I met,

Whatever they say,

I wish " isn't a game?"

Are they playing emotional game,

And pretending alone, 

Or mean it whatever they say,

Again I commit a mistake,

Trusted and disclosed everything, 

This heart isn't ready to believe, 

Am I became clown one more time,

Or was it true?

The only problem is,

I couldn't predtend and predict,

Trust,make me fool again,

Will stay away,

With the world or trust again.

KHUD

Kuch yunh khoya tha main khud me,

Kai jadojahad main,

Kuch paane ki chaah me,

Bhaut kuch kho Jane ke gum me,

Kya mila uske liye muskurane me,

Jo na mil paya,

Use sochne me,

Ki ankh khuli to paya,

Jo sab nirbhar tha mujhpe,

Sab bikhra pada hai,

Khud khoya tha main,

Kuch is dafa,

Ki kafi kuch bikhara pada tha,

Sakte me tha,

Thoda raste me tha,

Ki phale khud sambhala ,

Thoda sab kuch sambhala,

Or jut gaya ek baar fir ,

Inhe sambhalne,

Samtene aaj ko,

Jo kal ka bhavishaya h,

Khoya tha..

A Gift

A Gift,

A beautiful gift,

A precious gift, 

A blessed gift,

That gift,

Which carry love of loved ones,

Which carry concern , 

Which carry accompany, 

Which carry contentment, 

Which carry belonging,

Which carry happiness in dark hour,

Which carry admiration, 

Which carry trust ,

Gift,

A precious one,

A reliable one,

A inseparable one,

Nothing else,

Just,

Stay happy & healthy, 

With me all 

That Gift,

A God's given ,

Blessed one,

That Gift..

SURPRISE

The most loving part of my house is my balcony. The hanging stars gives me lots of happiness, Whenever I look to them in different time of days they always show me beautiful views and gives me a new aspect to think about life.In night with surrounding of mist I get immense pleasure after looking at them.Today evening when i're playing with them as usual I do .A taxi stopped in my block.I didn't pay attention much and after rang bell of my house when I rushed to door.I were surprised with teary eyes.Mom & Dad were standing there together. For a second I couldn't believe on my eyes.The starting of 24 already starts from heartbreak and day by day the eye opening incidents were going on.I really didn't want to celebrate one more birthday alone.I got birthday gift one diary and pen as always my Dad gifts me but the happiness of world bestowed upon me in the form of surprise.Thank you so much Mom & Dad and Yes ,my precious bro whose idea was behind it.One more time you held me in my struggling period.I write alot but for parents ,I feel speechless. 

Thank you Mom & Dad ,

Three little words are too small for you both,

So much to add,

For all your love ,

And your support,

A million words,

Would be too short.

The words aren't enough for you both.

Always grateful to God for bless me such a wonderful parents. 

May God always give me strength to be on righteous path and make me a daughter for you both dreamt of.

Love or Object

 The more lady look for love,

And give unconditional love,

The more lady got.....?

The more lady look for emotions,

The more lady is obejectify, 

The more lady give blessings & wishes, 

The more lady is getting cursed back,

The more lady dare to break stereotyping,

The more lady is questioned,

The more lady is loved in pure form,

The more lady is made lampoon of herself,

The more lady tried to wear crown of emotion  

The more it turned to be clown of her.

Men don't know the definition of love,

They know,

How & whom to use,

They use you,

You matters till you're beneficiary, 

They replace you,

It's a cycle, 

 you trap in false words & gestures, 

Demean you,

And Tell others about your character,

The more you loved truly, 

They made fun of you,

Why a mother,sister,wife or beloved love them,

Unconditional?

Men deserve it?

That's why in today's era ,

Nobody loves, 

They use everyone as object, 

Cause now lady knows how to use,

Men taught her in painful manner, 

 don't stay pure,true & lovable, 

Men tastes his own medicine!

PURE LOVE..

 

A pure love,

I found for you,

In my heart,

So deep and intense,

In your absence,

I love you ,

Like drop loves the ocean,

 Like dwan love the sun,

Like flower love the rain,

Like sidewalk love the river,

I wait so long,

My lips look for your smile,

My eyes look for your face,

My ears look for echo of your voice,

My soul look for your happiness,

I wanna to protect your dream,

I wanna to hold your face in my hand,

To say "everything will be okay",

But i hide my feelings,

And couldn't express my love for you,

Ever & forever so deep.. 

Inspiration -K-drama "25-21".

Glass -shards

Inspiration-Muniba Mazari(Painter)

Lying in darkness ,

Inconsolable sorrow, 

Like a broken piece,

My feelings, 

That compassion, 

Purblind all, 

Leave me dejected and lovelorn, 

Like so many glasses shattered on,

Full-body and heart bleeds,

A sound of cracking,

And glass-shards on my skin, 

I removed slowly all, 

Looked into mirror deep,

A person in it,

 Give me her hand, 

And pat my back, 

 I look deeply into her eyes, 

The way she's in love with me,

 How can I forget her for him? 

She responds with a smile, 

And reminds me, I am your world,

Don't look for love of others,

 I stood in pain, 

And converted glass-shards into a masterpiece..

"संघर्ष"

संघर्ष अनवरत अविराम,
आधारित उस पर हर परिणाम,

मैं सोचता,कुछ खोजता,
कुछ ज्यादा ही संकीर्ण,
बन्धनों में बंधा पर विमुख,
चलता रहता हूँ पथ पर,
अस्पष्टता को चीरता,
अस्थिरता को भेदता,

इस संघर्ष में अकेला,
कभी संग अपनों का,
कभी भीड़ में बिलकुल अकेला,
पर न डिगा, न मिटा,
मेरा प्रयास,

इस संघर्ष में खड़ा अभिमानी सा,
कुछ लगता कभी अभिश्यापी सा,
न थमा, न रुका,
दम तोड़ता पर दम कंहा छोड़ता,
मंजिल को पाऊंगा....

COVID-19

तुम कुछ यूँही हराते मुझे
मैं कुछ यूँ ही हारता तुमसे,
ये नाकामयाबियाँ
कुछ यूँ डूबा था मैं खुद में,
की आते उस तूफान की आहाट सुन न सका,

रेत सी छुटती,
पकड़ी न जा सकी,
अब कीमती है हर एक जान,
ये सब मेरे हैं,
यूंही ना मिटने देंगे,
मिटेंगे हम नहीं ,
तुम्हें ही मिटना होगा,



GO CORONA ,GO....

An Artist....

A thought comes in my mind and lost,
what was that an artist asked,
again trying to recall,
tried and broke,

I close all the doors,
and try to think once more,
taking stress a lot,
forcefully tried all,
but mind don't ready to support,
and each and every thoughts are lost,

again and again i recall,
but vanished all like a fog,
words look like written on glass wall,
and covered with dew,
thinking more in pain,
erased over-again,

one more time,
i think a lot,
and a knock on the door,
bell of my house interrupted again,
and i shut the door,
more harshly,more tightly,
cut all the wires,
leave no more disturbance,
only silence,

i,i am an artist,
cut whole the world,
from me,to the me,
i wanna to be alone,
wanna to create more,
creativity is my life....

मानव....

आजकल सुनाई कुछ कम देता है,
कुछ कुछ दिखाई भी कम देता है,
ऐसा नहीं है कि मै प्रोढ़ हूँ,
या मैं अबोध हूँ,

बस कुछ सुनना नहीं चाहता,
कुछ देखना भी नहीं चाहता,
मैं आज का मानव हूँ,
मानव हूँ अपितु रावण हूँ,

कई मायनो में,
मैं हमेशा अत्याचारी ही नहीं,
अपितु देखने वाला हूँ,
चुपकर चलने वाला हूँ,

कभी ऊँगली दिखाने वाला हूँ,
कभी हंस कर उपहास करने वाला हूँ ,

मैं आज का मानव हूँ,
मैं सभ्यता का उद्गार हूँ,
मै तरक्की की पहचान हूँ,
मैं मानव रूपी दानव हूँ,

खुद में लिपटा,
खुद तक सिमटा,
वाक्चातुर्य से भरा,
एक खलनायक हूँ मैं,

कोरी बातों वाला अभिनेता,
न कुछ करने वाला प्रेक्षित हूँ मैं,

इसलिए आजकल आँख कान बंद किये चलता हूँ मैं,
और महसूस करता हूँ कि
आजकल सुनाई........

Master Piece.......

A zeal,
or a deal,
from me to the mine,
voice is thundering,
and heart is pumping,

where you wanna to go,
an echo asked,
No,no where,
no hurries,
i am here,
stand still and alive,
go back to the work,

a single deed,
perfection indeed,
just burst out with passion along,
not mere temptation alone,

a long awaited,
creation on hold,
just a single one,
and lot of self applause,

Best out of me,
for me,
for mine esteem,
wanna to create,
a great work,
that chasing me,
like my magnum opus....

EPIGENETICS:Thoughts can regulate genes....

In the era of 21st century everything is controlled & mechanized but how much control do we really have on our own life,emotions & most importantly on our health?This thing i realized when i fell ill for a short period and i really wanted to go gym,tennis classes and many others but my body didn't support me.That time i noticed whenever you talk to any doctor they said everything will be fine,nothing wrong with you just take little bit rest and proper medication for sometimes.On one hand they test Pap-smear,ultra-sound many other kind of serious tests and the other hand they says nothing wrong with you.Why do medical science pressurize on positive thinking?Now the emerging bio-medical researches answer these kind of puzzles in the form of epigenetics....

According to mythology our thought & belief process simply affects our health .As well as Positive Thinking, Optimism, Gratitude and Happiness govern our health . The Power of Positive Thinking is key of healthy lifestyle.According to many biologist change in your thoughts and beliefs can simply change your health.For understand this i have to recall whatever i have been read in my graduation(B.Tech,Biotech).Why did we read a lot about human genome?What is central dogma and role of central dogma in our psychology and psychiatry ?


Famous author Deepak Chopra's book "God: A Story of Revelation" is mentioned some points.According to him “ Every day brings new evidence that the mind-body connection reaches right down to the activities of our genes. How this activity changes in response to our life experiences is referred to as “epigenetics” ”.Genes affect so many things as eye color,height and other physical characteristics those are predetermined by inherited genes.Along with surroundings also affects a lot from criminality to belief in God.A long ago Eriksen discussed "CENTRAL DOGMA"in molecular biology which states biological information can regulate only in single direction from DNA to RNA to PROTEINS.Basically it explains lack of power to do anything or change anything about the health of your body because it's all compel by genetic code.But later on this theory is rejected by scientists and it is stated that everything can be controlled by our surroundings & eating habits according to Human Genome Project.


Eriksen states an experiment regarding it:
"Cairns took bacteria in which lactase couldn't produce by genes and placed in petri dishes where only food present was lactase.In some-days dishes were colonized by bacterias and bacterial DNA changed in response of environment.DNA Replication process has changed accordingly.Thus,some biological information flows in both ways PROTEIN to DNA and DNA to PROTEIN & counters 'CENTRAL DOGMA'.As our genes influence how we literally see the positive and negative aspects of our world more clearly, we may come to believe the world has more rewards or threats.” vice-versa our lookout for life can change the way of gene regulation also.

As mentioned in my recently completed book "Super Brain",Our neural networks are being amended with every thought & feelings.Till the date there is no explanation of how the potential actions & synapses of nerve cells produces an experiences.
The communication among neural networks and brain wiring is ever changing depends on feelings,emotions & thoughts.Thus brain mapping and genomes are aligned,work according to human experiences.

So be positive your today's thinking shapes your genetic future.

A salute to great HeRoes.....

How do you feel?When you heard a lot about someone.About his dedication,sincerity,efficiency & about a great friendship.Then sudden you find out he is no more.The news of death has shocked you.You might experience a variety of emotions as disbelief, numbness & sadness .After the news has passed about tragic incident regarding Capt Prem Kumar Patil & Maj Dhruv Yadav's death.We’re struggling to cope.I put carefully Capt Prem Kumar'S notepad which i found in my home & never noticed by me.But now i reviewed it several times,how was his hand writing,his deeds,schedules definitely i am not getting those stuff.In the end of year i am recalling their last rites and heart-wrenching stories.I salute their families for their great sacrifice and sufferings.

Ek kali,
jo khilne se phale hi bikhar gayi,
vo deep jo or roshni deta,
achanak hi bujh gaya,
ek suraj jo badah raha tha gagan ki or,
kanhi beech me hi badalon se chup gaya....

palkon ke panno ka khawaab,
vo gaurav gatha,
kisi ka taa-umar intjaar,
us raagni ka saaz,
jukh gaya vatan us laal ke samaan me,
chahta hu aansuo se paanv thode me bi,
vo pakhaar du,

Sat-sat naman tujhe e gaurav,
samarpit is dharti maa me tu,
dhanay hai maati ye,
kusum bi ho jaye fida,
lipat us tirange me,
shaan tu badhaye ja....

dhanay hai,
ye desh,
ye maati,
or ye balidaan,
jo labon se na ho banyaa....


SALUTE........

Bibliophile..........

I can't,
really i can't,
you believe or not,
i can't stay away from you....

I couldn't resist myself,
you are started missing,
feeling empty inside,
start looking for you like an addicted....

You yes you are,
my beloved,
my friend,
my sophist,
my accompanied,

I loose myself in you,
and find me in you always,
no matter,
what's the time,area,place or space,
what subject you have,
and how much....

How people feel alone,
when you are here....

You taught me everything,
you told me everything,
you shared everything to me....

I live so many lives with you,
and dive so deep,
you make me cry,
you make me laugh,

I don't know
when i fall for you,
Yes i am bibliophile,
and you are my beloved........

PAUSE........

Lets freeze,
every movement,
each the step,

interlude yourself,
from rushing along time,
don't know its defense or offense,

waving hands in vagueness,
to remove all mist,
taking step back,

lift my head,
up to the sky,
to find the radiance,

watching the past,
staring at those scares,
and thinking this time,
they'll allow you to bloom,

trapped in ambiguity,
analyzing the present,
observing with patience,
believe that history will not repeat,

yes a pause,
a long pause,
whenever brimming with doubt,

a deep silence,
and a keen observance,
with a strong back up plan,

MOVE AHEAD.....

DEATH.....

INSPIRATION-'THE BOOK THEIF'


A huge dark shadow,
some thunderful clouds,
dawn at dusk,
day curl it's eyes within.
And day enclose.

twilight tears of night surround,
silence sounds alone,

i roar,
i am death,
and roam alot,
and takes the life,

but someone catch me,
that innocent pretty face,
and dive for the waterless,
for find the reason,

the difference between live and mortal,
live washed out years spent on nothing,

dive to understand me,
in deep and intense,

a life,happiness,love,
disappear instantly,
and sorrow begin,
what happened to them?

all games,politics,
evil intentions,
finished,
everything is gone,

all burdens are gone,
no difference remain,

yes,i am death,
who remove all differences,

now all is soothed cold and cool,
calm, heal sunburnt skin,
dim sum world remain,


so how to live,
for whom to live?
in you're hands in this abrupt world......

ROSES.....

A rose,
lovely rose,
have in the form of heart,

a beautiful heart,
a lovely heart,
that realize me
i am alive,

symbolize love,
in beautiful form,


an admirable love,
sometimes mine & yours,
always have two faces,
joy & sorrow,
petal & thorn,

whenever i put this rose close to my heart,
thorns hurt,
blood start ,
red paint my heart,
you could'nt see,

a heart,
a beautiful heart,
symbolize purity,
that realize we are different from each other,

only that person can see,
who realize its color in deep,
that beautiful color,
that velvety texture,

you touched and passed,
but couldn't sense,

rose is faded,
and sweet smell is gone,
beauty shadowed,
you didn't understand,
& make prank all of that,

roaming alone,
patiently waited alot,

but the desires last ,
like some thorn's harsh,
a wind blow down all petals,
they scattered a long ago,

and i saw all,
with plane face,
all finished,

again a cool breeze across,
realize me,am alive,
i collect all petals,
and smile,

realize life have more petals than no. of thorns,
and walk with smile eternal....

Failure.....

A broken glass,
again & again,

its pieces voice,
again & again,

i pressed my ears & tears apart,
all grief burst out,

an aim,
looking for i am,

its broken,
all fingers bleed,

how could i become so irresponsible?
all persistent efforts are exaushtible,

failure,
an unbearable failure,

it's like a chose a frame,
and form a paint,

a glass paint,
consistent worked on it,

plonked it at last,
at the time of final touch,

what was that?
irresistibly my heart's asking to me,

isn't it carelessness,
a work never done till frame isn't fit,

but what i did,
watching my hands scars,

these hurt alot,
but its conveyed me every time,

just do consistent work with cautiously.....

but this failure,
an unbearable failure,

reached the same place,
where i did a start,

i am watching my hands scars,
those recall me,
again & again,

don't be careless next time,
because opportunity will come,
again & again.....

PERISHABLE...............

I close my eyes tight,
waves of river plough into rocks,

see all memories purblind,
sometimes mines & sometimes your's,


sometimes a guardian,
sometimes a friend,
sometimes an enemy,
sometimes most loving person,
sometimes my field,
sometimes my work,
sometimes passion,
sometimes aggression,

every passing movement,
a passed movement or upcoming movement,
tell me everyone,everything,
gave me so much behold,
i want to hold it tightly,
but forget alot,


can time & sand bounded or holded slightly,
more & more i close my palm tightly ....

surrounding attack,
forced to act,
opened my palm,
let everything go alone,

yes perishable,perishability,
know,knew,
particular bonding,togetherness & particular timing met ,

cosmic never same always,
but all this perishability gave me alot,
left that smile,
one of the same.........:-)

so live in present & enjoy everything because it is decaying and world is perishable....

OBSERVER.......

Sitting quite in corner,
but holds alot,

you yes you are the gazer,
the gazer of time,
a history purblind,
continuous trying to understand different game,

a game,
a game of throne,
a game of opposites,
a game of stigma,
become sometimes enigma,

feel broken inside,
immediately hiding all gloom ,
nobody can see,
silence,nothing but ,
another thought starts,


try to search,
sometimes to urge,
flout of society,
lampoon publicly,

a wave bounced by inner side,
we live day after day,
life start progress on uneven plane,
my soul dying and rebirth,

want to embrace life,
and spread humanity,

I am the nothing just a observer.....

Manipulation.......

a quarrel,
sometimes contradiction,
internal and external,
spiritual or intellectual,
friction continues.............



can't alter acts,
can't wear mask infront of people,
can't act,
nobody can alter me,
am not dummy,


mocking whole the world,
mocking behind back,mocking infront,
can be it possible,
can mocking ourself also??

at somewhere,sometime,
my broken heart and shattered mind,
saying to me....


there is a place,
where between lies and battered ties,
purity remain,
i covered my face,
and cry hard,

i want that purity,
not manipulation....

Shreystha.........

jivan spandan,
ek anokha bandhan,

kabhi neend me mere chipak,
vo chote se hriday ki dhak-dhak,
thoda mujhse badkar thodda is jeevan se badkar,

tum kon ho,kanha se aayi ho,
ek baar fir nayaa jivan sang le aayi ho,

tumhe pyaar se nihaarte,
to in hathon se sahlate hathon ka kampan,

ek pyaari jhalak se nikale do aansoono ka sangrahan,

tum kanha se aayi ho,
apne sang naya jivan layi ho,

na jane kyon apne se bhi jayda apnapan basaalayi ho,
dheron athkeliyaan basaaye roz her roz kuch naya sikha jati ho,

tumhara athak prayaas,
pal pal ka sangarsh,
aage badne or jaldi bade hone ki kosis,

kanhi kaan me hole se kah jati hai,
nanhi jaan nahi ruki tum kaise ruk sakte ho,

vo kilkariyaan,
to vo rudan,
chod saare kaam apne pass bula leta hai,
to bhaut yaad bi aata hai,

me nahi jaan pata mera jivan bina tumahre astitav or darshan,
dahnayavaad mere jivan me aane hetu.........

Satya........

Kyu juth ka saaya bojh dalta hai hirday per,
kya koi ghar bas paaya hai is par........

sataya ajay hai,satya katu hai,
ye kaisi duvidha hai jise na hirday samjh paye....

ye bolta hai bol de sab anyaay,
khol de juth pariyaay,

per tu kya payega,
hamesha ki tarah thoker hi khayega,

khud per kardam hi uchal javega,
khud kalusit na hoker bhi dusron ki najron me kalusit ban jayega,

kisne kha tha satyamev-jayte?
saansarikta me to astay hi vijay hota hai,

tumhara ek satya,
ek katu satya!
ek diwar ki darrar ban sakta hai,
jannat ko jahunum bana sakta hai,

me apne-aap ko is kasmash me fansaa pata hun,
kiska saath du,

kyonki janha satya-astay hai kisi ek ko to haarna hi hai,
to kyu na kuch ache khatir astay ko jitne diya jaye,

per me ruk ker phir sochta hu ,
kanhi meri ye ek chupi kisi or ko na leen jaye,

per satya bhi mujhe,
kanha kalank,kaleshon se bacha pata hai,
apitu usme or phasva jata hai,

mera antah-karan,
lagatar mere andar parahar ker raha hai,
or me sochta hun?
kisne kaha tha satyamev-jayte,

aaj ke baad shama un sabhi se,
jinse maine satya kaha tha,
MICCHAMI DUKKADAM................

Discontent.........

a little dumb,dull,devastated,
i walk in dark night,
golden moment, passing flashback insight....

a little tensed,
past,present and future purblind,
running with less work,more dream,
less time,more province in my mind....

i am left back,
very back,
on tracking ground,
sitting still,watching them,
running around....

a little mistake,
a single wrong turn,
and a pathetic nightmare,
can i catch them again?
i am asking to myself....

yes,you can,
someone mumble in my ear,
you can catch yourself,
can break records....

you are still on track,
and i am giving you your field,
just use it....
see it,
collect it,
and start,

because i don't teach you to surrender.....

THROE.....

ek khawab hai jo sone nahi deta,
bar-bar haar jane per bi rone nahi deta.....

dil ki ek udaan hai,
vicharon ka samndar hai rukne nahi deta....

ek kasak hai,tees hai,
ek pal ko bi baithne nahi deta......

nahi maalum ant kya hoga?
per ek pal ko bi nirasha ko jeetne nahi deta.....

ek khawab hai sone nahi deta....

beshak nahi janta me raajneeti,sadyantra,
ek vyasta dimag hai duniya ke bare me sochne nahi deta....

nahi janta kaun hai?kya hai?kya chal raha hai?
saayad me janna bi nahi chahta....

ek rasta hai bas,
kaise jana hai,kitna jana hai,
nahi janta,
per phir vahi khawab hai jo baith jane per bi ,
baithne nahi deta...

manzil hai or ek safar hai,
me beech dariya me maidan chodna nahi chahta....

ek baar jo suruaat ker di hai,
ab dum niklne se phale bhagne nahi dega.....

ek khawab hai jo sone nahi dega.....

AAENAA.....

kabhi-kabhi aaena puchata hai,
kitna ker liya?
kanha tak pahunche????

roz subh uthte hi,
muh dhote vakat umar batataa hai,
phir puchta hai khud se,
kanha tak panhuche??

me sochta hu kuch ruk ker,
kanha tak pauncha hu??
lakshay kanha tak banayaa tha?

din per din,raat per raat nikalti jaati hai,
chakarvahuy me or phsti jaati hai,
jalad se jalad isse nikalna hoga,
ya soch ker hi so gaye,
ker lenge se na kaam chalega....

ab aaine me dekh aaena bhi sarmaane lagaa hai.....

ye mahtav nahi nahi rakhta tum kon ho,kya ker rahe ho,
apitu jo ker rahe ho kaya mann se ker rahe ho,
jeet rahe ho ya haar rahe ho,
kya lagan se ker rahe ho,

kyunki sab mil jayega bus tum kush to ho,
kyonki muskurate pratibimb ka to ye aaena bi mukura swagat ker raha hai......

KHUBSURT..

Kabhi-kabhi muskura jab uthti hu,
to khud hi khud se muskura baaten karta hai....

aaina bi tarif karta hai,
or muskurahat ke saath aankho ki chamak khahti hai,
achi lag rahi ho,
main muskura taal deti hu....

khushi se jhumte hu subh-subh bahar nikalti hu,
to hava kahati hai bandhe baloon me pyaari si gudiya lagti ho,
main shaitaani ke sath hanskar baal khol deti hu.....

tabhi badal niharta sa dhak leta hai,
taki dhup na lage,
me jhuk ker shukriya ker deti hu....

main teji se chalti,
deri se bachti bhagti hu,
to pass ka hi baag muskurata hai,
or phool muskura kahta hai....
dino-din khubsoort hoti ja rahi ho,
main khil-khila deti hun or dali chidh jati hai....


main manjil ka rasta pakad leti hun,
to rasta niharta sa ,tham leta hai,
or kahata hai,kyu ja rahi ho?
chalo aaj sair per chalte hai,
main ankhe taraa deti hu....

phunchte hi meri dost khahti hai,
kya khub lag rahi ho?
me khil-khila kheh deti hu,
tumse jayda nahi....

phir aate vakt bi sabhi milte hai or
shaam ka shahar jhankta hai, kone me se....

main muskura padhti kitab si,
chandni chahre pe aa girti hai,
or chand khidki per aa jaata hai,
main khol khidki use dekhti si,
vo lori suna sula jata hai,
sapne me spana khata hai,
aaj-kal khoobsurat lagti ho,
me karwat le simat jaati hu....

FANTASY........

With beautiful smile ,above the clouds ,
Gently u welcoming me,
I give my hand to u,
Blue eyes with rigid posture twinkling,
Stare continuously in my eyes,
Deepen more deepen,
Like all dreams come true,
Leave me with half-hearted …….

Hold me with a run,
Whenever I stumble,
Whenever devastetly I turn,
Make me smile and leave all works,
Collect all pearl rolling down through my cheeks…..

SuddenLY says to me "I am dream",
I accept,”yes”
Laughed and mummbled myself,
How can It be real??
It’s a fantasy just fantasy…….
And started with smile………
.nobody is there,nobody......